I am a Calvinist so I believe that God has a plan for my life and that everything happens for a reason. In short, there is no such thing as coincidence.
I am now living through a new aspect of my life called “loneliness”. And, while I don’t really enjoy loneliness, it is now a part of my life so I do have to deal with it. I can run from it and pretend that it doesn’t exist, but I can only do that for awhile. Then the specter of loneliness will arise and try to consume me and it will if I let it.
But, instead, I will embrace loneliness. I will spit in its face. I will dine by myself in restaurants. I will sit by myself in church and down front for all to see. I will go to the movies by myself and order popcorn and a soft drink for one.
Yes, I am alone but I am not defeated by loneliness. With God’s strength and grace, I will survive.
I feel the same way, Ned. Most of the time I’m OK but something will remind me of Ted and the life we had together and I am consumed with the loneliness. I know that Jesus is always with me but it’s still difficult.